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content/references/3-2-1- How to do hard things, being resourceful, and the value of simplicity.md

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+dateCreated: 2023-09-14 13:15:16
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-author: James Clear
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 > “Arguably the most important skill is controlling your attention. This goes beyond merely avoiding distractions. The deeper skill is finding the highest and best use for your time, given what is important to you. More than anything else, controlling your attention is about being able to figure out what you should be working on and identifying what truly moves the needle.” 
-> James Clear - [Source](https://jamesclear.com/3-2-1/september-14-2023) 
 
 
 > “When you’re doing something hard, focus on the fun part.
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 > Meanwhile, people who thrive in a given area are often emphasizing a completely different aspect of the experience. They are thinking about how it feels good to move their body rather than telling themselves exercise is hard. Or, perhaps, they aren’t really thinking much at all. They may slip into a trance during their run, a meditative rhythm.
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 > But what they are almost certainly not doing is repeating a mental story about how hard it is to do the thing. Their dominant thought is about some element of the experience they enjoy. They are working hard, but with the fun part in mind.” 
-> James Clear - [Source](https://jamesclear.com/3-2-1/september-14-2023) 
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content/references/Deep Dive into Detachment.md

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 		- or you could be thinking about what other people think (fractured, embarrassed, reserved)
 
 
-37:28: https://youtu.be/gs-TPWh4L9E?t=2248
+## nature of desire
+
+the way we get caught up in the future and the past, they tie themselves to our desires
+- it's sort of like an expectation, any time you have a desire, you want to engage in something, then there's an expected result
+- ex. advert for cookie, want the cookie, eat the cookie.
+	- you buy the cookie because of the expectation of fulfilment
+
+how do we undo this?
+- if we can conquer our desires, we can be detached
+
+jnana yoga perspective
+- where do your desires come from?
+	- born from our indrias, or sense organs
+	- when you want to do something - ex. torn between playing video games and doing homework
+		- have the desire to play video game
+		- but if you're activing 'dispassionately' you know that doing homework is the logically correct thing to do 
+		- but we have difficulty doing that, why?
+			- because of our desire, we feel like we can't control it
+	- we'll discover that there's some sort of craving or grasping for something like a sensory experience
+		- a past exp. that you want to emulate, but you honestly don't know if you'll get that same level of enjoyment
+	- all tracks back to your sensory organs
+
+grasping
+- any time you engage with a positive thing, an attachment will form
+	- your brain will always want more, more, more, regardless of how good the experience was. ex. wanting more food, better matches in a game, etc
+- you need to look at what happens immediately after the experience
+	- there's a grasping there for more
+- buddhist mythology/metaphysics
+	- realm between present existence and hell, there's a realm of hungry ghosts
+	- souls who have desires but no satisfaction
+	- ex. skeletons that are hungry but the food falls right through their bones
+
+why not just conquer it?
+- conquering it is in itself a form of attachment
+	- "i don't want to feel this anymore," "if i conquer it today, i'll be a better person in the future"
+	- all you're doing is replacing one desire for another
+	- a lot of self help people fall into this trap
+		- teaching people how to replace one desire/attachment with a healthier one
+- process of detachment doesn't come from conquering
+	- ex. yogis trying to attain enlightenment, but are still attached to enlightenment
+	- it is one of sublimation
+		- right from solid to gas
+
+you sublimate your desires through observation
+- look at the moments when you want to binge on your desires
+	- there's a thoughtlessness to it, want to go *hard*
+	- binge, lose yourself, game binges, drinking binges
+	- savoring your food vs scarfing down your food
+		- "idk what it tasted like, i just lost myself in it"
+- losing yourself in desire is a joy of the mind
+	- awareness and the mind don't go hand in hand
+	- the mind loves it when you're not aware
+	- releasing a dog outside vs keeping it on a lead
+- the more awareness you cultivate, the less you'll get lost in your desires
+
+
+## actions & expectations
+
+advanced technique: difficult
+- what is the relationship between you and the outside world?
+- stage 1 detachment: "i have no control over the outside world"
+	- devote to action, not the consequences, do the best you can
+- stage 2: recognizing the opposite is true
+	- the outside world is no different from you
+	- when you try to control the outside world, you're leaning into a vidya
+	- for you to control something else, it requires a subject and an object - the thing that is acting and the thing that is being acted upon
+	- you are no different from the outside world, you are in control of all of it
+	- "so why doesn't everyone just bend to my will"
+		- the you that you are, isn't the right you, that's misidentification with ego
+		- your ego isn't your true self, it doesn't control the world, you do 
+		- the awareness that you have is your true self, and that controls the world, it's one and the same that's all connected at its root
+	- when the world does something bad to you, that isn't the case, that's misidentification with the ego
+		- it's the world doing what it needs to do 
+		- it's not bad for you, it's you doing this to you
+	- advanced practice: maha vhakya
+		- "tat tvam asi" - 'i am that'
+		- sit & chant it, or focus on the concept of it repeat it physically/think about it
+		- or, as you go through life, recognize that you are that
+			- not blieve, convince, logic, just recognize
+			- it's all part of one system
+			- your ego is just one slice of it, a sock puppet that is being controlled by a hand.
+				- the sock puppet isn't a separate organism, different faces
+			- 1st - transcendant compassion
+				- so compassionate, it isn't even compassion
+				- traditionally: wanting something good for you
+				- but now, putting on a glove so you don't burn your hand
+					- this is compassionate because we all are aparat of a system
+				- requires practice
+		- then once you see that the whole system is connected and controlled by you, why do you have to worry? 
+			- you easily become detached
+			- like a child going on a trip with mom & dad who are taking care of everything
+		- how do you know that you're not in the matrix
+			- a delusion constructed by a part of you
+			- the only thing we have experience of is our own self
+			- everyone else is a hallucination, you're a hallucination too
+
+## sphere of influence
+
+what sphere of influence do you truly have?
+- the sphere of influence that we have over our lives is very limited, you can only control you
+- and on the flipside, there's so much you can do in the outside world
+	- you have an immense amount of power
+- ex. HG
+	- the team at HG can't control the world, but they can have a huge impact on the world
+- our lethargy & lack of responsibility comes from how powerful we truly are
+	- this comes from attachment & a sense of ego
+	- "i can't do x,y,z"
+	- we might think it's facts, but its not
+	- anyone can start studying like crazy, get a phd, become cancer biologist, and cure cancer
+		- or at the very least try
+	- "but cancer cant be cured!!"
+		- this is an expectation
+	- this pattern is a cycle happens over and over
+		- don't understand who we are
+		- don't understand relationship with the world
+			- caught up in desires
+			- think happiness comes from the outside
+			- keep on chasing and chasing things
+		- it never works
+
+
+## summary
+- suffering comes form avidya
+	- avidya = ignorance of the situaiton
+- the manner of this suffering is usually through attachment
+- so we want to cultivate viragya
+	- doesn't mean dissociated or apathetic
+	- instead, dispassionate, or detached
+		- which is actually living fully
+			- our attachments keep us from living fully
+				- our fear of the consequences
+- tools:
+	- observation
+		- notice how you expect from the future, what happens when you expect, when you cling to the past
+		- the more time the mind spends doing those things, the more attached you'll be
+		- notice that you're fucked no matter what you do
+			- you can't control the outcomes, only devote to your actions
+				- completely devoting yourself to your actions feels great, it makes you impervious to the world around you 
+- it's about reps
+	- the more you sublimate, the more calm your mind will be
+	- ex. why monks are in monasteries
+		- remove themselves from the bombardment of the outside world
+	- cultivate a certain kind of mind
+		- what dictates what you experience in your mind?
+		- sensory impressions & attachments
+		- the more time you spend meditating, time outside your attachments, etc.
+			- its about the reps
+
+## q&a 
+- relationship between
+	- these
+		- ego
+		- outcomes
+		- fracutred awareness
+		- unsatisfied grasping
+		- being done with something (free from karma)
+	- ego & fractured awareness
+		- ego results in fractured awareness 100% of the time
+		- ego is the directors cut
+			- activity of the brain that isn't focused on the task
+			- neuroscience
+				- default mode network
+					- where the sense of self comes from
+					- housing for the ego
+					- hyperactivity of the DFN leads to depression
+					- the fastest acting treatment for depression is ketamine, which is a dissociative agent, shuts off the DFN
+			- we sing freely in the shower because no one is watching
+				- but if you realize someone is watching or filming you, your ego comes into the picture and your attention is fractured
+				- you're not just singing, you're thinking about what people will think about your singing
+			- binging a show or playing a video game allows us to put our full attention into something, and our ego goes away
+	- ego, fractured awareness, and outcomes
+		- fractured awareness -> outcomes
+			- fractured awareness leads to bad outcomes
+			- it's the opposite of the flow state
+		- ego -> outcomes
+			- bad
+			- narcissim generally leads to unhappiness and those people not doing very well
+	- + unsatisfied grasping, being done with something
+		- uunsatisfied grasping
+			- when you have a grasping and you fulfill it, you sew the seeds for future grasping
+			- unsatisfied grasping is the goal
+			- people advocate for desirelessness, asceticism
+				- you can't be hardcore about it, you need to be chill about it
+				- "everything has to be as hard as possible!!!"
+			- awareness will lead to detachment
+			- if you have a grasping, and engage in it with awareness, that will be better than not engaging in it without awareness
+				- I feel like X, I'm going to indulge in it, and see what my reaction is
+					- is it enjoyable? how do i feel? was it worth it?
+					- if you do it with enough awareness, the desire will dissipate over time
+		- being done with something/free from karma
+			- if you indulge in a desire, it doesn't free you from karma, it does the opposite
+				- activating the Nucleus Accumbens, signing up for craving and tolerance
+				- more and mopre action, less and less pleasure
+			- as you give into grasping, your sewing more karma
+			- how to be karmically free
+				- about awareness, what goes on in the inside
+				- flowers example
+					- give the flowers, not expect a result
+					- the action is the end 
+					- when you expect somethings, then there's a mental karma
+					- the perspective of thoughts
+						- give flowers - "i'm glad i improved someones life a little, time to go take my dog for a walk"
+						- vs. atttachment - "i left a note, are they going to text me, why havne't they texted me yet, why are peoople like this, why am i like this"
+						- vs. ego attachment "look at how detached i am, i gave them flowers and didn't expect anything, i'm doing so great."
+				- the difference is in your perception - what you're able to detect
+					- the more you're able to detect, the more you will be able to be done with karma
+					- karma is about what you attach to it
+
+are hopes & dreams also just attachments that we should abandon?
+- no
+- are they attachments?
+	- not necessarily
+	- hopes & dreams could be echos in the mind
+	- you can have a goal, something you're striving for
+		- notice the tense, striving for vs want to accomplish
+			- one is in the present, one is in the future
+		- it's perfectly normal to have hopes and dreams- to strive for, but not to want to accomplish
+		- good to have a direction, something you're striving fore
+			- but wanting to accomplish something is a trap
+	- present focus, action, etc
+	- even from an outcome perspective, this is good
+		- when we try to accomplish something and it doesn't work out, we see that as failure
+		- when we strive for something and it doesn't work out, we see it as a setback
+		- it depends on where you are, what's the next step forward vs missing your shot
+			- gg vs lets go again
+- abandon?
+	- this sort of has emotional energy
+	- we should sublimate, yes
+	- abandon, no
+	- abandon means to forsake, give up
+		- that's not the attitude of detachment
+		- detachment is about observation and sublimation
+
+
+actions to take now
+- watch the expectation that comes from an action
+	- watch the birth of it
+	- removing expectations is hard
+	- how do you remove a tree
+		- prevent the planting - a seed is easy to remove, a tree is dificult
+	- start by obeserving the seeds you're planting
+	- what are you expecting to get
+	- notice how the more expectations you have, the more upset oyu're going to be
+- when you suffer
+	- ask 'when was this born'
+		- you may think it was born from an action, but it wasnt
+		- it was born from an expectation
+		- the consequence could be born from an action
+	- when you experience suffering, go back to where the expectation was born
+		- if you had changed your attitude toward it, what'd youre life be like
+	- living where you are now, rather than trying to recreate experiences of the past
+		- get wrecked by a hero - "i wanna do that with that OP hero"
+			- "anyone can win with that hero, its so frustrating"
+		- so you choose that one next time
+			- and then you do awful, its not that easy
+			- then you feel even more frustrated

content/references/How To Reinvent Your Life In 4 Months.md

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+author: Cal Newport
+url: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0G7Wu4DnDaw
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-- Cal Newport
-
 
 1. Discipline - first 2 weeks (mid sept)
 	- Set up Core place where you document everything, a single place for your commitments

content/references/💡 Why I created my alignment philosophy - John's Idea Galaxy - Obsidian Publish.md → content/references/Why I created my alignment philosophy - John's Idea Galaxy.md

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content/references/cal newport's planning system.md

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-# cal newport's planning system
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 - Core documents
 	- values
 	- career + personal strategic plans