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content/references/Deep Dive into Detachment.md

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+---
+author: HealthyGamerGG
+url: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gs-TPWh4L9E
+status: Reading
+type: Video
+dateCreated: 2024-04-30
+---
+How do i become detached
+- it isn't one things, it's a lot of different things
+- we'll go through many different perspectives to end up in this one place
+
+What is the source of our attachment?
+- Avidya to our true nature
+	- Avidya = lack of knowledge/ignorance
+	- False identifications with our body & mind
+
+outline
+1. Dissociation/apathy
+2. Desires & our relationship to the universe
+	1. Grasping 
+3. ego
+4. karma
+5. perception
+6. tools
+	1. meta cognition
+7. jnana yoga
+
+advanced detachment isn't about doing more or special things, it's about doing them more & more consistently
+- "how do you get into shape?"
+	- you can be taught on each method of exercise, and little tweaks that can help you be more efficient/effective, but it's the consistency that will really get you in shape
+
+
+## jnana yoga
+
+yoga = union/liberations
+- 4 paths for yoga to lead you to enlightment
+	- one of those paths is of knowledge
+	- in the path of knowledge, we contemplate
+	- we don't do much/see many people practice this
+	- the path of contemplation is difficult
+		- because our mind is not pure/is flawed
+
+what detachment is not?
+- lot of people think it means apathy, being "unplugged"
+	- what is apathy? it is a very powerful attachment
+	- usually these people have a core attachment or emotion that is walled off and is calloused
+		- underneath the "not caring" there is a lot of caring that leads them to wall themself off
+	- ex. people who have given up on dating
+		- they're not detached, they're so resentful and burned, they just wall it off
+		- wall off -> stop feeling -> apathy
+
+detachment is about going all in 
+- living life without worrying about the ego, consequences, etx
+- ex. casino
+	- the odds are not in your favor. you can calculate the odds
+	- but the way you play depends on your attachments
+		- the way you approach the gambling can be very different
+		- if you're excited, passionate, "I can do it!" 
+	- you can play the game dispassionately, calculated, or get caught up in it
+- vairagya - sanskrit word for detachment
+	- vai - without
+	- ragya - passion, interest, color
+	- living dispassionately is our goal
+		- we don't just ignore the world around us, we just don't want to get caught up in it
+		- you can feel emotions, have passion, but it's about not letting it be all consuming and entirely sweeping you up
+	- people who are attached in life go towards what they're attracted to, and away from the things that repulse them
+		- so they lose control, your emotions dictate your actions
+			- casino ex. "i'm on a hot streak" and become more passionate about winning more, but the odds are still against you
+	- neurosci
+		- chasing our attachments is biologically impossible to get happiness
+		- nucleus accumbens - you get a trigger of dopamine
+			- 1st it creates pleasure
+			- 2nd creates craving/anticipation
+			- 3rd creates tolerance
+		- do an activity 
+			- 5 units of pleasure, 1 unit of tolerance, 5 units anticipation
+		- "i wan't 5 units again"
+			- if you win a second time
+				- 4 units of pleasure, 1 unit tolerance, 5 units anticipation
+		- 3rd
+			- 3 units pleasure, 1 unit tolerance, 5 units anticipation
+		- there's no way to win this, as you engage in the behavior more, your pleasure goes down due to your tolerance, but you still have the same craving
+	- so we want to cultivate dispassion towards our life
+		- you want to be like a gambler who understands there are consequences, what the odds are, but then can act appropriately
+		- but when we act through our passions, we don't accurately judge the world around us, we get caught up in stuff
+
+avoid living in the future
+- don't cling to the present, don't focus on the future
+- our brain has the capability to project out into the future
+	- don't stop thinking about it, just stop living in it
+		- ex. have a crush
+			- you can act with an expectation of the future
+			- or no expectation of the future
+			- ex. if you buy them flowers
+				- you give the gift with an expectation of something in return - not a real gift, it's a trade that you didn't know about, and you don't know what I'm expecting in return
+				- if the expectation isn't met, then you suffer
+- karma far
+	- you're entitled to your actions, not the consequences of your actions
+	- you can give someone flowers
+		- you can understand the facts around it, that it'll show them you like them, that you are interested, positive emotions for the receiver
+	- when you live dispassionately, removed from expectations, you're more likely to be successful
+	- your mind serves a function
+		- what gets us into trouble is that the mind controls us instead of us controlling the mind
+		- ex. senses
+			- you should enjoy tasty things, but if you let your tongue run your life, you'll end up in a world of hurt
+			- it's not that you can't engage with it, just don't let it run the show
+	- the future focus is the same thing
+		- calculate out the future
+		- but don't expect a certain result when you take that action, let go of it
+		- do the best that you can, then realize that the world outside of you might have different plans
+	- your suffering will come from the expectation
+	- look at things in your life that you've enjoyed, 
+		- look at what the expectation was, and what was the influence those expectations had on your enjoyment of the outcome
+		- ex. someone telling you "this is the best movie!"
+			- then you're expecting a good movie
+			- otherwise, you would've been pleasantly surprised that it was good
+	- living with detachment is a consistent state of pleasant surprise
+- focus on the actions, don't expect a response, calculate the odds of the response you want, but recognize that its just chance
+
+avoiding living in the past
+- clinging to your glory days
+- notice if your mind wanders, dwells, regret, resentment, etc
+- 
+
+what is the atomic make up of these two things?
+- patterns of the mind
+	- ex. if you're resentful for the past "tell me in a 5 min exp. in your life, how you're resentful for the past"
+		- think about the past, emotions from the past, you don't think about the present
+		- or when you look at the present, your present is colored by the experiences of the past
+	- the past comes in and influence the experience of the present
+		- it's not living in totality, it's the opposite
+- if you look at your cognition
+	- there's a slice of your mind on the present, and a slice on the past
+	- any time you have fractured attention, you will not be happy
+	- ex. if you're dancing
+		- you can be dancing with you're entire self (totality, joy)
+		- or you could be thinking about what other people think (fractured, embarrassed, reserved)
+
+
+37:28: https://youtu.be/gs-TPWh4L9E?t=2248

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